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Funeral was today. Whoever said funerals are fun, is FULL of crap. I think today was one of the saddest days ever. I watched them cover her up and close her casket. The absolute last time I will ever see her on Earth. Heartbreaking. I miss her so much already and it's been 3 days. Still doesn't seem real. I keep looking for her.
She taught me to sew
She kept bingo in the microwave
She taught me the 23 Psalm
She cooked me fried eggs in the monings when we spent the night
Little Messy Cafe
Ice cream sundaes
"bye of baby bunton"
yahtzee while listening to music from the 50's
lite brites
swing set singing rock a bye baby
easter egg fingernails
french manicures
white chocolate popcorn snuck into movie theaters
going to see the mud puddles in fultondale
make-overs
watching titanic
pocket sandwiches
growing potatoes
line drying clothes
feeding cats
beach trips
dance recitals
mother's day
birthdays
cooking from scratch
bedtime stories
putting blankets on me when she thought i was asleep on the couch
jet ski rides
cooking catfish
$2 bills
seashells and rocks
"take em out!!"
blowing up baloons at the lake and blowing her teeth right out
"oh fiddle"
aluminum
samich
5 dot toast
her baptism
her love for children
playing house
washing dishes
her alarm system (aka pots and pans in a chair by the door)
her security stuffed bull dog
watching the game shows
crazy dances in the living room at her house
picking okra and blueberries
I love you, Granny. I miss you.
'You're in a better place' I've heard a thousand times. & at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you, but the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry is how long must I wait to be with you
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It doesn't seem real. I am expecting to see her in 3 days on Thanksgiving. It doesn't look like her in that casket. When does it sink in? When do I realize that I will never see my granny again? When will I realize I will never hear 'oh fiddle' again or have her hug me and call me Tracie?
I know she is in heaven and she remembers and is made whole. So Granny, go rest high on that mountain. I'll see you again one day soon. I know you are enjoying paradise.
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[19 Nov 2009|09:44pm] |
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well I'm almost done with UAB. Going to move in wi Haley on Jan 2. Hair cut today! :) woot*woot!
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[23 Oct 2009|06:44pm] |
I really can't understand why people can't be happy when they hear good news. Why they have to think of the negative or think that I will screw it up somehow.
I got accepted into UA. Yay! :)
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[08 Oct 2009|07:18pm] |
Midterm time already. I am so DONE with UAB. UA received the crappy school's transcript. Now they are just waiting on Jeff State's to get there in the mail and such. YAY!
On another note, I am done with my 1st essay for my lit midterm that is due tomorrow. I have started my 2nd by writing the thesis and half of the first paragraph. Go me! It's only 7:20.
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[20 Sep 2009|12:06pm] |
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I'm so tired of broken promises and words that are worthless.
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[12 Aug 2009|07:00am] |
School for my children is over. Less than one week left for me.
Thank you, God for today.
"There's always gonna be another mountain, I'm always gonna wanna make it move, always gonna be an uphill battle and sometimes I'm gonna have to lose, ain't about how fast I get there, aint about what's on the other side, it's the climb"
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[06 Aug 2009|10:31pm] |
Summer is almost over. Jeff co school starts Wed. and UAB school starts in a week and a half. I'm exhausted.
Pajama day tomorrow! ♥
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[14 Jul 2009|07:22am] |
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I need to get away. If I never get away, they'll NEVER let me grow up and be on my own.
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[29 Jun 2009|11:13pm] |
Today, I was told by a 6 year old that I was the "worst teacher ever". Sadly enough, it hurt my feelings. He then proceeded to tell me that he hated me.
What a great day.
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[29 Jun 2009|09:04pm] |
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Outdoor weddings....in June...in Alabama....are CRAZY hot!!!
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[26 Jun 2009|07:22am] |
Take my hand to the promise land
And on You I want to stand
‘Cause I cannot do it on my own
You're what I need and I need to be
Right by Your side ‘cause I cannot hide
Lord, I know that I need You
Na na na na na na na na na, I need You
Na na na na na na na na na, I need You
Without You I'm so alone
I am weak but You are strong
You pick me up when I'm falling down
And I am crying
Out to You inside of my heart
I need You, Lord, oh so, for the part
I want You to have my life, Jesus
I fall to my knees
And I'm begging You, please, oh, Lord
Won't You change me
Make me new from the inside out
I want to shout out Your name
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[16 Jun 2009|08:56pm] |
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It's been a long week and a half. Emotional ups and downs. Sickness and no wellness. I'm just ready for a normal happy life again. I'm ready for a routine.
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[22 May 2009|08:26am] |
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So today is kindergarten graduation. I have the worst possible headache. My brain is throbbing, literally. I must soldier on though. I have to go to UAB this morning to contest my EH 102 grade. BLECH! I just hate teachers who don't care! It's your job to care, not to just cause DRAMA! Thank goodness it's FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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[16 May 2009|09:21pm] |
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It's been an EXHAUSTING week. I wonder what next week will hold...
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[07 May 2009|11:30pm] |
So I'm done with my first year of college. Go me.
I'm so mad. I can't understand why nobody can tell me anything and just expects me to know things. NEWS FLASH! I don't know what you are thinking! I can't tell that you have changed your mind when you have told me nothing different! Just tell me what you are thinking! ESPECIALLY when I am counting on you!!!
I saw a turtle today. I picked him and moved him out of the road so he didn't get run over. Love those little things!
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[23 Apr 2009|12:25am] |
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i see myself in the light that i am not as successful as i could be. That i tend to rely on myself way too much and not on God enough. That i could be better, but for some stupid reason i choose not to, although it is unintentionally. maybe i have a skewed vision, maybe i have a vision that more people need to have. All i know for sure is that God guides me to clean up the messes i make, and at the end of the day, He is awesome, i am not. But i am b-e-a-utiful in His eyes, and i am His creation. i should be little compared to Him. i will continue making my "i's" little.
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[14 Apr 2009|11:30am] |
Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick and think I think of You, turning in cricles confusion is nothing new, flashback to all the times You placed Your hand in mine, suitcase of memories. Sometimes you picture me im walking too far ahead your calling to me I can't hear what you've said then you say 'go slow, you're out of line' the second hand unwinds. if youre lost you can look and you will find me, time after time. if you fall I will catch I'll be waiting time after time. if you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting time after time, time after time. sometimes You're hard to see it feels like You're away from me life is a mystery im wondering how can it be. then You say 'I love you I'm with you all the time and I'm not hard to find' if you're lost you can look and you will find Me, time after time. If you fall I will catch you, I'll be waiting time after time. If you fall I will catch you I will be waiting time after time, time after time, time after time.
Thank You for always being there for me. Always. I'm falling before you my King and I cry out for mercy and I fall on my knees I lay my cares before You, my King.
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[12 Apr 2009|12:54am] |
Oh what lovely noise when we raise our voice and sing, I wanna thank you Lord, You're the giver of ALL good things.
I love you.
I long to go back to Big Stuf. One day I know I will. I love you, Daddy.
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[10 Apr 2009|12:10am] |
$30 for a haircut!? Crazy.
This week has turned out to be awful so far. Hopefully tomorrow and Saturday are MUCHO better! :]
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